HEART BREAKS

It is very upsetting when you have a plan and it won't go so smooth the way that you wanted to. I am trap in the situation that it's really hard for me to decide. My husband did book my airticket for 2 weeks, to the Philippines and 3 days in HK. It breaks my heart leaving my dear husband, especially now that his daughter had moved out, so he will be alone aside from Kyra. I won't be leaving until next month, but since the day he booked my ticket, he keep telling me that he doesn't know what he gonna do everyday after work, coming home to an empty house. On the other hand, my family is expecting me so much to be there on my nieces graduation day as I promised. My husband couldn't take a vacation from work not until May or June, where all his projects will be out. So now, I am so confused what I am going to do. I don't want to see my husband being unhappy, I knew what he felt, because since we got married we are always together, and we both hated to be apart from one another. It is very difficult for my part too, because I will be thinking about him all the time, esp. now that I keep tracking of his diet. I will be worried all the time, if he is eating the right meal.

The other side of my mind was telling me to just wait until May or June, when my husband can come along with me. But at the same time, I am worried to tell my family, especially my father, that I will fail to fly next month. Until now I don't know what's the right thing to do. My husband suggested, if I agree, we can try to file a visitor's Visa for my father to come and visit us, and go to the Philippines together in June. So with this suggestion from my husband, I do feel that it hurts him, if I flew by myself w/o him. He did book my ticket, but inside of him, it against his will. He just didn't want to disappoint me, if he tried to stop me from this vacation. With this situation, I felt very guilty. I might try asking my father if he likes my husband's idea, since he really wants to come to the U.S. I hope everything works fine, that my family would understand me. My ticket is ready, only me isn't ready.