HARD TO DECIDE

I told habebe about our conversation w/my father on the phone, and how much my father missed me. He told me that I should go to the Philippines, he understood about my father's feeling. Since I am the youngest and the only girl, and away most of the time from home, he did feel that my father misses me so much. We do have a plan to take a vacation this May, but we postponed or completely cancelled it due to my hometown's situation, plus habebe have loads of projects at work. He wants me to take a vacation by myself to visit my family, anytime this year, and we go together next year. I just can't decide going by myself leaving him behind. I wouldn't have peace in mind, thinking about him being alone and after a long day at work, no one will take care of him, plus our little hanap buhay. Without me working on it, he will be forced to work, because we do need to send all the items to our customers, to prevent from getting a negative feedback. He said it will be fine, he can always send emails to our buyers, that we can't send their items, not until I come back. I am not convinced, I can't stop thinking about my bana being alone, he used to it for almost 2 years now w/my company. We both hate eating dinner alone, as we used, to eat together. He said he would try this Monday if he can get a month vacation from work in September, after he will finish some of his projects. He didn't expect that he will be so busy this year, due to the economy. He thought, after his 3 projects done, he wouldn't be that busy. He was surprised that he has another 8 or 10 projects to do for this year, that's why every time he comes home from work, he is totally worn out. One of the reasons that I can't decide to leave him, he will be very lonely and even more tired w/o me taking care of him. We can go together this June but he can only take 9 days, and he doesn't want to go for just 9 days. He wants at least a month, because we gonna go to Hong Kong and stay there at least 4 days to meet my friends and visit the kids that I have looked after. They are all waiting to see me. I am praying that we can make it to go this September together. We started searching some hotels in Boracay Island, coz habebe likes to go there. They are so much cheaper during low season.